Back to school for me is really the best time to start something new.
I have the most amazing family. I have been blessed with three beautiful, healthy, smart daughters and a successful and hard working husband who has loved me for the last 20 years. My life is good. But, I am a mostly stay at home mom and wife and summer is a blur of 90 days of cooking, entertaining people, planning and vacationing, and cleaning up after all my fabulous family. I should have made my kids more responsible but to be honest when you stay home for a living, everything you teach them to do for themselves is working you out of a job. So I do most of the busy work at our house. And I really don't mind. I do complain about it, but I really enjoy having these people to care for. And I do know how lucky I am.
Recently however I have been anxious. My oldest is now a sophomore in college and I miss her terribly sometimes. She just left last week and already the dinner table feels too big without her there. I started this blog a two years ago to channel some of the restlessness and join a community that I had been looking at from the outside for years but then I filled my days with unimportant busy work in an effort to avoid the reality that regardless of what I do with the days, time is going to keep going. I cannot have this family this way forever. It is going to change and evolve and that is not something I have control over. I need something to fill my life when all of my kids are gone but I also need something to separate my days and inspire me to love the next phase of my life as much as I have loved this phase.
Maybe it is this blog!
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